Fifth

I remembered that day, u came to Pasir Gudang to celebrate my birthday. (yeah u said it is too early, but u did celebrate with me anyway). U drove for more than 4 hours, took toll free route as u tried to save money and endured the painful long ride just to make me happy and of course, u did. We spent the two days together happily, we were laughing over silly jokes and temankan saya utk ambil ic di rumah because I left my wallet at home.

I remembered when u asked "seronok tak dapat hp baru?"  my face beamed with happiness and u replied "seronok la tu, lebar senyuman, awak tak pernah senyum macamni"

That was the moment I realised I am truly happy because u are with me. Dapat hp baru memang best, but the ability to share those happiness and excitement with someone you truly love, is precious.

I didn't have luxury to share all my feelings and emotions with my loved one(s). I have been an independent woman for my entire life. Living alone in Pasir Gudang doesn't help either. I shed my tears when my ex boyfriend bailed out on me. I remember I involved in an accident and have no one to call for help. I did try to call my boyfriend at that time, but he never picked up my call and it made me feel worthless of his time. I feel abandoned, insecure and plainly dumb as I tried to settle the chaos. I remembered waiting for his text and hoping he could tell me everything was okay, but he didn't.

Therefore, I appreciate when you, abang, try so hard to be there with me in my highs and lows. I really do. So, I put my best effort to make u feel comfortable in Pasir Gudang and we had amazing dates. We ate asam pedas, tasted the best volcanic beef burger and had an awesome breakfast date at my kluang. I glad I did order the toasted wheat  bread twice because they are awesome! The most surprising thing was we ordered the same thing and hey, finally we have something in common.

Thank you topek for sacrificing your time and money. You may not be pouring me with money to buy my love but you are showering me with undivided attention and loyalty, and boy, I couldn't have asked for more.

Love you moonpie. I'll see u in two months.