Tambahan.

 Luka dan dilukai

Curang dan dicurangi

Sayang dan disayangi

Perkataan yang mempunyai kata dasar yang sama, tetapi berbeza makna bila wujudnya imbuhan

Begitu juga hidup dan kehidupan, tampak sama pada dasarnya, tapi ada beza tentang makna hidup dan kehidupan. 

Jika manusia hanya ingin hidup di atas mula bumi, celakalah kehidupannya. 

The hardest question.

As a teacher, the hardest question from students  would be "kenapa nama saya tiada bin/binti teacher?"

And there I was, standing blankly and staring those demanding eyes. Yes, he/she  insisted  on and begged for the answers to satisfy their itching curiosity. 

I tried to clear the lump in my throat before I parted my mouth to give the answers she/he had been waiting for. 

Then, I went with " why? where is this coming from? ", I tried so hard to ease the conversation, navigating my mind to find the loophole and tried to escape from this dire situation. 

“saya dah buat research, saya tahu status saya

And my mind went numb. I froze there for a few minutes. It was hard for me to drop the truth but I knew, I have to do it. 

Then, the long conversation started with "Saya minta maaf, saya..." 

While I explained few things especially the importance of knowing what are our locus of control are and how she/he mustn't dwell in the sad past, I saw, tears were streaming down her/his face. I knew at the moment, her/his wall was crumbling down and she has no one to help her and pick up the pieces. 

I consoled her/him, so I thought, as best as I could. We talked about a few other things and how she/he actually put things together before she realised the truth. It was really sad yet it did bring us together. 

When she/he excused herself/himself because it was the time for him/her to go home, she/he asked me whether she still can text or dm me if she ever feels lonely. 

And I said yes, not because I have to ; it's my obligation to support her. 

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha.

Pengorbanan memerlukan kesabaran.


Kerana kadang-kadang, pengorbanan tampak seakan sia-sia.

Usah gusar, letakkan kebergantunganmu kdpada Yang Maha Esa


Kerana Dia sahaja yang bisa menilai zahir dan batin seseorang.

Ya Allah ampuni dosa-dosa ibu bapa serta dosaku yang lalu dan lada masa akan datang.

Kau angkatkanlah doa-doa kami ke langit dan makbulkanlah.

Aku serahkan segala urusan dan ketetapan hidupku kepada-Mu kerana kaulah penciptaku, Al- Khaliq.

Semoga hari raya korban ini lebih baik dari tahun sebelumnya.

I am a mess

As tears are streaming down my face,

My crunched-up red nose feels like  a leaking pipe that tries so hard to retain its shape

I am overwhelmed with excruciating heart break,

Shattered heart,

Broken trust and promises

And false hope.


Oh Lord, why did I do to deserve this kind of fate?

I am a mess,

Who can't even pick up the broken pieces,

I am that loser who isn't worth fighting for.

Imy part 2

I miss reading ur blog 😢

Where are you now?

Forgive me for all the things and sins I've done to you.

Sumpahan.

Adakah aku menerima sumpahan tidak akan berkahwin selama-lamanya? 😥