I opened my email and saw a picture of you. You were sitting in the restaurant, smiling sheepishly and the one who accompanied u, managed to capture the beautiful picture. We did fight about this picture because I doubted who took the picture. That wasn't ur usual pose and that was not a candid picture because it seemed that u purposely posed it for someone else. I ignored the piercing and negative voice inside my somehow because my rationality convinced me, we were no longer together and it's not my business anymore. Really .
Then, I fell asleep and i dreamed about your blog. Truth to be told, I missed reading your blog. It always holds a special place in my heart despite of what we have been through and what happened between us. We drifted apart, mainly due to my mistakes but the words from your blog linger on my mind. In my dream, you posted a beautiful picture of a stunning woman (skinny, tall, fair and poise : total opposite of me) and you professed your undying love for her in your blog. I felt a twinge of jealousy in my heart. The picture of hers shares the same background as your picture in the email and my heart wanted to explode with rage. I screamed and cried in my dream because I loathed the dream and the image of both of you together.
When I woke up, I ruined my mood for a while and finally, I tried to put it all behind. I want to be happy for you because clearly I don't deserve you. Awak orang yang baik, akan dapat perempuan yang baik seperti dalam mimpi saya. Therefore, I hope u will find your happiness in the future.
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