Last night WAS magical,

We stood on the bridge, the wind swept our skin gently and u stared deeply into my eyes.

When you smiled, there were fine wrinkles around your bright eyes and all of the tenderness in your voice make me feel weak,

the conversation ran smoothly and despite of my fear of height, I stood there happily while staring at the dark lake. There were no stars but the dimmed light on the bridge shone on our faces. I kept teasing you just to hide the anxiety away. You laughed over my stupid jokes and smiled when I looked the other way when clearly you tried to hold your gaze on me.

I never thought I could be this nervous let alone, falling in love too fast. I am afraid I will hold onto this fragment of memory forever yet you will leave me, just like the others did. You will get tired of my negativity, my downs, my jealousy and my insecurity. I am so messed up and it seems that I can't find ways to love myself. How can I love you when I don't know how to love myself first? I don't know, I just want to embed the memory of last night and sleep forever. I am too tired of loving someone wholeheartedly just to let them break and shatter it into pieces.


On the other side, last night was the night I fell in love with your for thousandth times and I still do now. Thanks Topek for picking me up around 11pm and spent your late night just to making me feel happy. Despite of your sentiment towards Putrajaya, you brought me to my favourite bridge, Jambatan Seri Wawasan and let me indulged myself there. I love you so much abang. I really do. Please don't leave me.