Yakinkan aku tuhan, dia bukan milikku.

This is the mantra I've been chanting for the past 6 years,

and it still lingers on my mind whenever I think of you.

I can't erase the past memories, I can't rectify what I've done to you, I wish I could turn back the time, I wish I could be a better gf, I wish I could be more patience, but I couldn't

and here I am again, down to the memory lane, thinking of you for a little while, before I've decided to move on.

I am still wondering, what are you doing now? where are you now? are you married with the woman of your mother's choice and most importantly, are you happy now?

Despite all of these voices inside in my head, it doesn't matter now. It doesn't matter if i still care about you or I still think of you when I am driving. It doesn't matter if I hear your laughter before I sleep and it doesn't matter if your whisper echo in the air that I breathe in because you've gone away and left me.

I have to move on and pack all the memories and store them in somewhere safe because I know, we will never getting back together.

Time will heal and I am sure, one day, Tuhan akan yakinkan saya, bahawa awak bukan milik saya lagi.

Stay safe, and take care Afif. You will be dearly missed.