To all the men I've loved before.

I've read a teenage fiction and this teenage fiction has been adapted to Netflix series. The title is to all the boys I've loved.

I find it very bewildered, amusing and heartwarming. It kinda brings back old memories and I did enjoy a few parts of it. It is about a shy and domesticated girl, Lara Covet song who wrote the letter to her past crushes. It's not the typical love letter as it is a tool for her to profess her love and end her crush.

However, the letters are meant for her only eyes as she keeps the letters in a hidden pink box. Unfortunately the letter are sent to previous five crushes and she needs to confront them one by one. The situation is getting complicated and trickier as one of the crush is her sister's ex boyfriend, Josh, knew about the letter.

Therefore, to avoid confrontation and going behind her sister back, she made an agreement with Peter Kavinsky ( Lara Covet Song past crush)  as they will pretend as boyfriend and girlfriend. This happens because Lara wants to drive Josh away and Peter needs to make her ex girlfriend, Geneive wants him back.


Later that she knows, the feelings are getting complicated and she is starting to fall in love with Peter. Peter has been described as handsome,  movie material  and foul-mouthed.


There is one conflict that really leave a mark in my heart. It starts when Peter try to convince Lara that he isn't the one who told everybody they have sex in the hot tub during skiing vacation ( they did kiss anyway) and Peter figured out the common thing between all of Lara's crush during the heated arguement. Lara loves all of them because she thinks she can't have them as boyfriend. She  is scared of starting new relationship as she is not a risk-taker and I kinda get that. Lara reminds me of myself  as I am afraid to get back into the relationship after what have happened to me over the past years.

I have a crush on someone else's boyfriend, I have a crush on someone who is way out of my league,I have a crush on  my collegue who doesn't even bother to say hi to me, I even have a crush on somebody who is afraid of commitment and the list is endless.

and they share the same thing too ; they are somebody who I can't afford to have as my boyfriend because I am afraid to take chances.